Wednesday, November 14, 2012
A Rant...for the sake of ranting...
At least I try not to.
Sure, you know when my life is crazy, and you know when I'm having a hard time finding a weekly menu to make, but maybe you don't know what is REALLY going on in my head.
I have had a fear that if I really tell it like it is, I might scare my readers away, and I don't want that to happen.
Unless they WANT to know what is really in my heart of hearts.
Like for instance how stressed I have been this whole last year.
My husband and I both have jobs, we have a warm home to come to each and everyday, and we have food on the table, and we are all healthy. We pay for things with cash, and do NOT have anything extravagant in our lives.
However, we are strapped like we haven't been for years.
It started when the economy tanked under Obama 4 years ago and has never recovered.
When that happened, Brent's salary took a nosedive. But finding a new, higher paying job, with a sense of job security around Northern Indiana right now, is like finding a needle in a haystack, so he has stayed. He's been at this job for 15 years now. He SHOULD be having a pay raise instead of a pay cut.
Occasionally he drives milk truck on the weekends if we are needing the money, and I started my ETSY shop, (because it's always been my hearts desire to sell crafts...)but also because we needed another source of income, albeit, infrequently.
We are not hurting. We have a warm home, and we have food on the table.
I have to remind myself of this over and over, and over again. God has ALWAYS provided us with what we needed EXACTLY when we needed it. He has, but not without a few tears shed along the way. (Mostly by me.)
I have to remind myself of all the things I am blessed with all the time.
Especially when I see the people who go to school with my children everyday, whose parents are not working, who are living on Government welfare, and who are getting free lunches, but who have IPODs and Laptops, and flat screen TV's in their homes. I have to bite my tongue when my children ask why these kids have these items and we do not.
It angers me more than anything else. Obama angers me more than anyone else because he's allowing so many people to have free hand outs, while the rest of us are struggling to survive with no governmental help.
Gas prices and food prices, and feed prices for our animals keep rising, but our paychecks keep getting smaller.
Our Country is in need of so much help, and so much prayer.
This is NOT something I talk about...EVER, but my body is suffering this year with all the stress of wondering where in the world the money to cover certain things is going to come from.
Brent reminded the kids on election day that even though Obama won again, doesn't mean we shouldn't pray for our leader. That's the only way we might crawl up out of the hole he's put us in.
After all that's been said...I'll stop. I'm done. I feel a little better. I'll not mention this again.
I'm sorry if I have offended anyone. That was not my intention at all. It's just what we've been dealing with for what seems like a very long time.